It’s easy to
think that sticking us in a building is okay and that’s all we need.
Well
unfortunately, fatigue, lack of balance and co-ordination, which gets worse for me during
the day and our bodies turning hot for no reason, which means I’m sweating in
my clothing, then go cold for no reason, says something else.
This is the
case in cleaning anything, from washing a plate, to cleaning my room.
I pay for a
housekeeper, which isn’t cheap but she is someone I can trust and does a
wonderful job.
I don’t
insist that she wears a housekeeping outfit. I’m just very grateful that she makes
my place well-loved, cared for and hospitable.
This includes
tidying up my bedroom and changing bed sheets. I’m grateful for this. Before my
housekeeper, I would look at my dwelling and cried. Not just because of the
mess but because of the frustration of not being able to do it myself, as I did
before having Multiple Sclerosis (MS).
There’s no
point in moaning to myself, ‘why is this so hard for me?’ as I’ve accepted that
my cry will only be answered by getting a housekeeper that I know who’ll not
steal from me.
We don’t like
asking, as I, like many who have a long-term health condition, affecting the
central nervous system, want to se seen as strong, independent and capable.
But our
health says to us, NO, IT’S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN AND I WON’T LET YOU DO THIS!
We smile and
remember to be friendly, even when we know that those same people that we are
being nice to, are talking about us, in a nasty way, behind our backs or have an
ulterior motive, when asking us questions in a friendly way.
My condition
is only going to get worse. I’m not being weak willed. I don’t bite. I’m human
and I’m still turning up for meetings. That’s got to count for something!
Light and
Peace
Andria.
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